Having Faith : Life is not the same anymore !

It's been really long since i got time to sit with myself. Today, I felt like writting how my life has changed in past few years. I am not the same person I used to be may be 3-4 years back. I used to have ambition and goals for myself, which I no longer have. I used to love food, movies , travel, talking to friends and just getting to explore things. Now, nothing makes me happy, I gave up on non-veg, food doesn't excite me anymore. I don't travel at all. I have lost touch with almost all my friends. My priorities have changed but I wonder if there is anything that can make me happy anymore. I have grown and become more mature, sometimes life teaches you so much in 1-2 years that couldn't be taught in 30-35 years. Strange it might sound but it's true. Tough times make you a better person. Nothing can teach you about life, about people around you or infact about yourself, more than difficult times. Even now, when I am deeply scarred and hurt, I thank god for giving me strength to be positive and to still think good for others. It's an instrument i use that affirms that I am on the right path. My inclination towards sprituality has helped me in these times. There was a time I used to wonder - why would anyone want salvation ? Life is beautiful and why would someone want to get rid of this cycle of birth and death? However, now i realised that life is never about being happy or trying to be happy. Life is created in order for us to learn and grow, and this involves going through challenges and God put us through difficult scenarios in order to give us opportunities to be true to ourself and to do the right thing, in order to refine and grow ourselves(our soul). Well, it's true that you will feel lonely and weak during the tough times, but the hope of better tomorrow keeps you going. Doing the right Karmas (which keeps your conscience clean) and having faith is all that we can control.

Are you a Dreamer !!

An extremely happy moment for me today...

Today i got my CFA level 1 result, I am ecstatic to see that I have passed. Being unaware of simple financial terms, it was a huge task for me. But my interest towards finance was the only driving force. I worked really hard for it and didn’t want to flush down the drain all the hard work I 'd put in. The exam went really good but since I was not too confident about my ethics section, I used to get nightmares that I am going to flunk. My breath used to stuck on the very thought of failing. It’s an extremely joyous moment for me today. I told my family and particularly my dad and my brother, as they were equally eager for the result as I was. Now, it time to enjoy & move on to take the next step towards something even more difficult. Hope my desire to achieve continues….

Worst Friday 'EVER' !!!!!

Wo WO WO...the bad stuffs seems not to end at all!!! This weekend seems to be like confronting hell in person. Well, to start with i have an exam tommorow, whose center is pretty far and i ve to get there by 8 am in the morning. Apart from horrible preperation, i have to take care of travel. Moreover, I am pretty held up with the design i am doing at work for a major project, and it was not enough that i just got the news from work that i have happened to done a disaster with one of the stuffs i recently deployed in production (that is application i went live with recently). Mannn!! there is just too much happening around and worst part is nothing seems to have been going right. I just wish i maintain my cool and do my exam tommorow. Its a long exam till evening and then i have to reach office to wind up the mess that just happened today. It all seems big, because i am very used to all good things happening around and well i must take it as an experience to enrich my life!! But i seriously hope evrythings settles down wellll and this LONG FRIDAY just comes to an end!!!!!

Fun in Miami continues!!

Yet another fun filled weekend. On Friday evening, right from office, I went out with friends to chipotle Mexican grill and had amazing Mexican food. It was the best food ever since i have left India. Completely enjoyed it, the food just hit the right string of spice. The variety was amazing, you can have Burritos, Tacos and so many other variations wrapped in tortillas.

On Saturday i went to a friend's house for dinner. He is Spanish and a very lively person. His wife made amazing dinner and i still miss those delicious desserts that i had after dinner. Apart from dinner, we spent some amazing time playing around with his music instruments. He is an excellent guitarist and plays drum too and don't know what else. I played almost everything that i laid my hands on. It was yet another amazing experience.

On Sunday, I went out with another friend of mine and his wife to CORAL CASTEL, which was a masterpiece by Edward Leedskalnin who made this castle in 20 years single headedly for love of his life, Agnes Scuffs. The place leaves a lasting impression and makes us feel the power of love. We were able to see various creations of his right from Sun dial, Polaris telescope, Cooker, Moon Fountain and other living necessities like Bed, table chairs. It was amazing to see how coral which gives a rough look, felt as soothing as velvet furniture. The cold breeze and amazing environment makes you feel lost in heaven. After appreciating the beauty of castle we tucked in a restaurant and had supper, the weekend came to an end after a long drive back home to the apartment.

Well this was not the end as the night life had its flavour to add to the weekend. Had some soft drinks and shook around with music to wrap up the weekend.

To know about Chipotle Mexican Grill:
http://www.chipotle.com/en-us/menu/menu.aspx

To know more about Coral Castel:
http://coralcastle.com/

Life does take you places..MiAmi FoR nOw!!

Life takes you places. In my journey of life, i have happened to come to miami. Miami, first thing that comes to your mind is beaches. well, it been 3 days already but i haven't been able to get to a beach due to work. But i have planned to go see KEY WEST during weekend. I am all excited about it.

As of now, i really like the place. It's soo clean and soo well organised. Every place is divided in streets and avenues. Its really easy to get to a place even if your new to this place. Weather is awesome. Even when its scorching sunny, if you stand in shadow you can feel the cold breeze. Life is very casual. What has really surprised me here is the language, it wiered as majority speaks spanish instead of English. You go to any shop and the person tends to start the conversation in spanish..thats has already happened twice with me. Though its not an issue as everybody knows english. Food is also not that much a problem. Since you can find major multinational franchisee, its not difficult to find a place to tuck in and have something. Even if you are staying in apartments like i am, you will make good use of frozen food and will not miss tasty 'Aaloo ka parathas'.

Life just looks pretty smooth here, though the only thing which bothers you is friends and family back home. But its really nice to find oneself in a place like this as far as it's not for very long. I am loving every moment as of now.

mY RaNDom ThOuGhts...

• Sometimes we just dn't know whats gud and whats not, it is just the time that tells us....



• Is it right to always priortize things in life?? Sometime we might just miss some unimportant yet the most beautiful thing in life...



• Having lived the moment makes the moment more special than actually living it ....



• Outburst of emotions can pave way to a level of tranquality which calmness and endurance can never...



• Overrandomness can just make things somewhat organized...

• When it dawns, we mights seem to believe that we know how the day is going to unfold, but only when it dusks that we realize the beauty of unkown..

Confronting the darker side!!!

When the heart swells and becomes too heavy to breath
Its then that we realise things are not as good as we pretend to make them look
Self-consolation is no more the way to deal
An outright acceptance of reality could carve the way forward
Blatant denial or ignorance can just push you farther inside the darkness of life
It’s the hope and desire to fight,which breaks the dawn in life
Accepting failure as a destiny is not the way forward
Challenging the odds and fighting the fate to decide the future is the characteristics of a true winner
Sometimes we tend to believe that giving up would fetch us relief
But the guilt that it generates is far worse than the pain of failure
Continuous struggle to beat your own best, brings out something even better
And can change the unfortunate that you once saw impending
The aim you chose to achieve when you were most enthusiastic about life
Is the destination you are ought to achieve
Perseverance and patience seems to be the key to success
Giving up is not an option

If you don't like my attitude report me at WWW.WhoCares.com

Behaviour of a person is the most unpredictable thing that happen to exist. It seems more to be a function of time. well, it's indeed a time variant factor but to a large extent perception plays an imperitive part in determining the mood. Perception of something greatly affects our understanding for the same. If we develop negative thoughts about someone then even the amicable actions would appear evil. Hatred & hostility is the root cause of disorder and chaos in mind. Tranquality can only be attained by being an open book, being absolutely down to earth and candid. But i 'd like to ask you whether it's actually true.

Are people really ready to digest, what you have to say or what the truth is for that matter? well! i beg to disagree. To a large extent, people want to hear good things about them. What one really likes is a SYCOPHANT around. Reality checks are not really in. But is this what we are supposed to be doing. NO! rite. So where are we lacking? Is it our EGO or just a darker side of the human behaviour.

Now, Can we overcome it? Ofcourse we can. Only if we develop the power to accept the things as they are. Not only gain the wisdom to accept the truth but to share it as well. We need to patient and strong. Let others mock at you if you share something strange about yourself but you should never put yourself in a situation where you feel like laughing at yourself. You need not justify your deeds to others but your own conscience. You don't need to change yourself for people who don't like you and those who like you, wouldn't want you to change.

Some say i am changing..Am i ?

Evolving Indian soul...

I have a dream; i am a dreamer,
I wish i get what i wish for,
Not really for me but for someone who has made me what i am,
My desires are not for myself but for my parents,
My endless efforts are not to make me proud but my dad,
My wish for a higher salary is not only to buy myself material things,
But also to see if my family needs it,
You can find me in the shadows of himalayas,
You can locate me right next to ganga,
Yes,i am an indian soul,
I wudn't mind staying with my parents even when i am 25 and self-employed,
I don't wait for occassion to greet my parents,
I still cry over phone when i miss them,
I wudn't mind touching feets of people i don't even know,
I don't have to tell my parents that i love them,
I still feels my mom makes the best food, even if i can afford the best cook in the world,
I don't start a family when i get married, but i just extend it further,
It just seems such an ideal world of mine,
Some say i am changing.. am i ???
Am i becoming like my western friends overtime?
They are not wrong, it's just that they have a different way of life,
So is changing the way we have been living, is wrong?
So basically we think changing is incorrect,
But i thought change is inevtable,
So why do i feel guilty when i act like my western friends?
Why am i so attached to my conventional indian way of life?
I want to experience change,
Globalisation has made it so easy,
I have not changed but i have just broaden my view,
But some still say I am changing....am I?

Uncertainities In Life

I sit here in my balcony wondering what my future holds for me. I have decided to go for cfa exam level 1 in june. This wud probably increase my chances for mba in finance but most importantly it will give me hold of some of the fundamentals of management. Its just been a month since i have started preparing for the same but i tend to see a lot of things around me with value. I understant the time value of money. I hope to cover various topics as time goes on. I also have to sit for my GMAT early next year. All this requires a lot of time and concentration. I don't get too much time after work but i tend to utilize most of what i get. Things are pretty hazy, heart is heavy and i feel scared sometimes, but the determination of my ultimate goal drives me through all the odds.
I just hope things turn out the way i wish them to.

Life In Transition..

I cant believe i am working soo hard. since i am the only person handling the accounting department i have to answere all the accounting related queries that comes up in any of the other departments around. this is not the end of the story apart from handling all the enhancement cases and support going on in accounting department, i have to give training to the new joinee for this year batch and prepare tests for them. Moreover i am working on the minor project of my ex-boss and a senior project member. I like having responsibilities and to be considered as a critical resource but at the same time one needs to be appriciated. I agree that nobody tells me anything but sometimes i just feel that my efforts are not acknowledged.

I have this habit of leaving office on time as i hate working late for no reason. I tend to finish all my work by 6:30 and then drop a few mails onsite and pack bag home. People who stay late, even if they have wasted hours chatting and smoking, are considered to be putting extra effort. This has never motivated me to hang around late just to please the boss. I hardly waste any time during my stay in office apart from lunch and a evening supper.

I had always lived life on my own terms wheather its been my educational qualifications or any aspect of life and i still do. Though i ve seen people around me half heartedly do things to impress the seniors and it even pays. This has made me wonder at times about my way of life. But as of now i am very much the same and i hope that the circumstances dont make me change.